God opened a door

I peeked around the corner of that door and yep sure enough it was hell in the hallway.
Do you remember that story in the bible the one where the Isrealite king goes and consults with a witch about wether or not they will win this big battle that's come in up even though God already told him they would win. I used to read that story and think "what a dope you've got God himself telling you "you will win this battle" and still you are going to a witch for what? confirmation?" Bah what an idiot I used to think you got what you deserved second guessing God like that. This is where the story of "he who has no sin cast the first stone" comes into play. I was wrong to think that way about that king in the bible because now I finally understand the desperation that comes from NOT KNOWING!!!
First i'm supposed to be moving myself and my boys into our new apartment soon and when I go to the leasing office to sign the rest of the papers I find out they leased my apartment to someone else by mistake. So now I have no apartment I did get my deposit back though since they didn't have another one open they could rent to me. Ok i'm upset this is a rather huge set back but I'm thinking no problem I'm sure God has a reason for this happening..i'm repeating my current mantra of "all things happen for a reason and all things work to the good of those that love the Lord".
I go to pick Phillip up from work and he's really ticked off so I do my usual thing of late and I pretend he doesn't exist. He starts telling me about why he's so mad and I realize it's the same song and dance i've heard about his job since i've met him so I tune him out. That was a mistake because I then realize this is a segway into him telling me that his daughter called him at work to tell him that she found drugs in her moms and stepdads closet and she asked her friends mom to come over and tell her what it was. So of course the friends mom comes over and confirms that yes this is drugs of the illegal sort and the mom calls phillip to tell him what she's found. So now not only is Phillip ticked about this bull hockey at work but the real reason he's so ticked off is that this woman and her husband have been doing drugs in the same house where his kids are.
I know I say a lot of bad things about Phillip and they are justly earned and deserved but one thing no one will ever hear me say is that he's a bad father. Phillip is a fantastic dad who always puts his kids wealfare ahead of his own..too bad that particular trait is absent in the husband department but I digress.
So now i'm ticked off why you ask? because these children have come to mean a lot to me and even if they didn't mean a lot to me bad parenting just pisses me off in general..it's the principle of the thing ya know. So back to this little snafu..this particular friends mom is a friend of mine that I made it a point to befriend when I found out that Andrea was hanging out with her daughter. Hey just because we live six hours away in another state doesn't mean we don't keep tabs on the kids. Of course we drove out and met with this particular friend and her mom on one of our trips to Tennessee and while Phil was over there feeling sorry for himself because he had to return the kids to the Ex I let my natural ingrained southern charm do it thang and I made sure to get the dibs. The point is that Ursula is now one of my friends and she's keeps me informed on what the girls do, where they go, and whats up with them on a general basis. So when the shit hit the fan with the whole drugs thing Ursula called me not realizing that Phillip had my cell phone that night because his was dead at home. It turned out to be a good thing since it's his problem not mine and i've been on him to make friends with Ursula so he could keep track of Andrea and what's going on over there. Many many many phone calls later we find out the stepdad lied about having a job in Tennessee, he doesn't have a job at all and he sits at home all day spoking pot and the kids are eating at Ursulas house because there's not food in thier house and Andrea has been wearing Ursula's daughters clothes to school because her mom never has any money to buy the kids clothes (probably because she's spending it all on drugs and her loser husband) and no one seems to know where the child support money is going. Hellooo probably to buy drugs for the loser husband.
So now where does that leave me and my boys? We can't move out because we have no apartment now.
Andrea and David are going to need counseling to cope with all this upheavel in thier lives and Phillip doesn't have health insurance to cover that cost.
I feel like a heel moving out and leaving Andrea and David with just another broken home to go to.
Of course to be fair I already feel like failure in my marriage and I was already feeling bad about our two kids together being children of "divorce" so I guess feeling like a heel about this is just one more bad feeling.
Sure wish there was a crystal ball around I could look into and know exactly what I'm supposed to do when i'm supposed to do it..instead of groping around in the dark like a blind man in a dark alley with no walking stick.
Oh well back to my mantra "All things work to the good of those that love the Lord..oooommmm...All things happen for a reason..ooommm".