Dissappointment

I got the e-mail today from H.R. that I was no longer being considered for the position that caused me so much anxiety last week. It was so much up and down and up and down but dear reader at the end of my second interview I was so sure I had that job. I was supposed to have recieved a call before the e-mail but apparently I don't rank a phone call before a negative e-mail. I am just so defeated right now. I didn't realize how much I wanted that job until after I met with the Dean and now, well now i'm sitting at my desk trying as hard as possible to keep from crying. I am trying very hard to stay positive but it's a rather huge blow. My family really could have used that extra money and I really need to be challenged. I'm so bored at this current job and I feel so underappreciated. I'm so upset and really I guess I should be reminding myself that the Lord has something better in store for me but quite frankly I don't much care right now what he has in store. That job would have been the answer to a lot of our families financial woes and worries and I can't seem to care if something better is lined up down the road.