writing is a lot like giving birth

I must have started and abandoned a half a million good storylines through out my life all because when the going got tough I dropped the ball. I'm not willing to do that with this new book. It's the first time i've started writing something that just STUCK with me. Maybe it's because i'm drawing the inspiration from my own children or maybe it's because i've always loved weaving fiction in with non-fiction or who knows maybe FINALLY this is the book the Good Lord intended me to write and finish..all i know is like always it's hard!!! I always have that feeling that i'm missing some vital piece here and i've spend a ton of time online looking up the meanings of names and historical definitions not to mention hebrew text..it all adds up to the same thing...headaches and sleepless nights. I NEED to finish this book I NEED to have at least one manuscript that is complete and I REALLY need it to NOT suck!!! LOL..I wonder if other writers ever read what they wrote and think..this is so lame no one is ever going to want to read this..or is it just me..LOL. I really hope my kids love this book regardless of what anyone else thinks i'm really writing this FOR THEM. something to leave behind that they will be able to read and know and see all the admiration and love and hope and dreams that I have for them. Writing is hard it's lots of sleepless nights, tons of sticky notes on a story board along with writers block and eye strain and headaches..but man if you get it just right it's sooo worth it!